Triggered: Drug Relapse, His and Hers

This post is part of a collaborative narrative series composed of my writing and Chris Arnade’s photos exploring issues of addiction, poverty, prostitution and urban anthropology in Hunts Point, Bronx.

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This post is part of a collaborative narrative series composed of my writing and Chris Arnade's photos exploring issues of addiction, poverty, prostitution and urban anthropology in Hunts Point, Bronx. For more on the series, look here.

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Drug Table: Hunts Point, Bronx. Courtesy of Chris Arnade.

Out of detox

Weighed down

By bags of clothes and a sensation

To run:

He cannot be seen. But she needs

Diesel, two bags.

He is clean,

Clean suburban husband

Wannabe left seat-tapping in

A mini-van. He has conquered and

This is her fault, her and her

Medusa'ed habit:

"Shit, I saw a white

Van and almost zombie-walked

Into a bust. Fuck, it's raining

So Jose ain't at his corner

Because he's a pussy,"

She said,

Who then, for Buddha Bless?

She wanders.

He waits clean, proper until

Mania -- there, on the sidewalk,

The dealer.

"Goddammit she's walking

The wrong way.

God fucking dammit."

His rage is a thumping thing

Against the seat

Matching her return

Crescendo of fury

Needles--

"I bumped into

My dope fairy." Bought

Four bags instead

Of two.

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About Cassie Rodenberg

I write, I listen, I research, I tell stories. Mostly just listen. I don't think we listen without judgment enough. I explore marginalized things we like to ignore. Addiction and mental illness is The White Noise behind many lives -- simply what Is. Peripherals: I write on culture, poverty, addiction and mental illness in New York City, recovering from stints as a chemist and interactive TV producer. During the day, I teach science in South Bronx public school.

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